feel the music change your mind

shapesofwords @ 2009-12-11T00:25:00

2009-12-11T06:25:52Z

I had an awful abduction dream last night I couldnt move out of. It plays out like this, I was driving I dont know why but i get on the ramp to go onto 35 North right by the airport and I see a sign that says that so when I was getting on I see a plane pass by with loud noise then i see a HUGE craft that was not a plane and it was in fog in the sky so it was hazy but i saw red lights and went directly under it and i hear some low pitch frequency noises and a bright white light and i couldnt move all of a sudden so it freaked me out, i just kept thinking that i need to stay conscience through all this so i cant be abducted and i managed to start rocking back and forth and then i woke up in my room sitting up. lmao i freaked out so bad i slept with my light on after that.

shapesofwords @ 2009-10-06T16:21:00

2009-10-08T07:38:49Z

Im getting really tired of my job already lmfao. The new manager is a bitch and is just so retarded. Anyway, still havent had time really, Ive just been around its kind of good i guess been having more money to myself. I dont really know too much....I still feel like I cant trust them both, I dont know if theyre going to fuck me over........I hate feeling this way about Ray. and I hate feeling this way about Thomas. its just been done too much to me already in the past.

shapesofwords @ 2009-09-06T19:11:00

2009-09-07T00:10:28Z

been so busy working, it sucks I have no time for my friends anymore. I hope that changes when we get our new supervisor in and I can stop working all week. Anyway this Asst Manager position has been just too fucking easy. it really sucks not having time for my friends i dont really get to talk to anyone anymore except ray. oh yeah hopefully in the next 6months i will be getting an apartment with him soon ;) i cant wait to get out of this placeeee and to be with my babe aw. uhh nothing else has happened.

shapesofwords @ 2009-07-10T19:34:00

2009-07-12T06:12:42Z

Today was my last day, it felt so different. I stayed to learn about the paperwork, that was easy. Wellll, now I can't wait til Monday.

shapesofwords @ 2009-07-08T16:20:00

2009-07-10T03:04:04Z

Man, two more days and I transfer stores. I'm so nervous, training is easy though just it was so confusing today because I did registers alone and it kept coming out severly over on the registers but that was lost pety cash money jkasldjas. Also I think people know more then they are telling me. I'm suppose to be meeting with managers from other stores, I dont know why...just so nervous ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

shapesofwords @ 2009-07-05T15:58:00

2009-07-07T02:39:49Z

I've been out. alot. I'm glad to finally be home today though I wanted to leave because i despise being home but I am really tired from the past week. I got really fucked up 4th of july, i started drinking at 6pm and didnt stop til 4am hahaha. it was neat. also i messaged this one guy i knew from high school but he stopped messaging me after i told him i use to talk to thomas alot, whats up with that mayne.. oh also i picked up smoking cigarattes again <:) ... oh also, who has two thumbs and is new assisant manager at Dairy Queen..yup thats right THIS GUY <:::) too bad its in another store though, I sure am going to miss Lytle. I start Monday at 9:00am though guuhhhhh so early.

shapesofwords @ 2009-06-28T09:21:00

2009-06-29T03:30:08Z

I hate not being able to trust anyone.

shapesofwords @ 2009-06-26T23:35:00

2009-06-27T17:48:50Z

Going to Hooligan's tonight, I'm excited I have never been there. :))

shapesofwords @ 2009-06-24T08:55:00

2009-06-25T04:15:47Z

I don't even know where to begin, I feel ashamed because people can connect me with you. I hope you really burn in hell for what you did. Why take innocence..How could someone even do that....how could you have done that....

shapesofwords @ 2009-06-21T22:47:00

2009-06-22T05:00:32Z

I feel so drained throughout the days, I have actually been taking naps lately and I don't know why I get enough sleep during the night. It really feels like I've been sleeping my days away. Well anyways, last night I went to some bar called The Beach and it was pretty chill there, I got tipsy and danced to alot of random songs lmfao.

shapesofwords @ 2009-06-20T16:52:00

2009-06-20T23:00:29Z

I am going to Hooters today. :)

shapesofwords @ 2009-06-16T17:48:00

2009-06-17T04:04:22Z

Sometimes I feel like I want to grab the money out of my bank account and just leave, leave far away. Well it wouldnt take me very far but I'd like to just escape to somewhere new..when I have chances i always make an excuse why i shouldnt leave.

lol, i freak out for anything, obviously

shapesofwords @ 2009-06-15T21:07:00

2009-06-16T02:12:18Z

Leaving my old journal behind. Time to start fresh. :))))